Sometimes there is nothing better than getting outside and running in the fresh air.
I needed a break from work today so took the dog (Shiloh) out for a run. I ran about five kilometres but he seemed to cover a bit more. The boy was wondering why he seemed so tired tonight. I think I ran his little leggies off. Must put a tracker on him one day to see how far he actually goes….
Anyway, we have had a bit of stress lately with end of semester school exams, and a car accident last week and whatever else is going on and I had been waiting for the girl to have a meltdown over it all.
She has been fine but I had the meltdown for her.
So I have been running.
It works though, my stress and anxiety levels come down and I am happier again. I can feel physical soreness instead of mental soreness.
I don’t take a phone so no one can reach me – just me and the dog and the outdoors. No one knows where I am or where I’m going.
Get outside and just breath.
So I have just missed a whole month of blogging somehow. I think I was in an exhausted daze for most of April so I will excuse myself.
I have this blog so that I can get stuff off my chest about the girl and the boy but sometimes it is even to chaotic to write down or think about again so I don’t.
I run instead.
Running lets my mind run free from this world. The thoughts in my head just flow in and flow out and my body just moves. I love focusing in on my body and feeling how it all moves together.
Running is my time out from my life and enables me to regroup and calm down. And maybe get fit and feel better about myself at the same time. I am training for a 10km race in July, and a half-marathon in October. Crazy!
But I love it!
How do you look after your mind?
I know it has been a while since I have written anything. It has all seemed to hard and daunting. I’m sure you all know the feeling.
Welcome to my life…
The kids went back to school last week but I feel like I am still playing catch-up after the holidays. The house is a mess, homework routine has gone out the window and the meltdowns are building up. Last night’s was a whopper from the girl. One section of homework took 3 hours, and it still wasn’t complete by the time I was about to throw it in the bin in disgust. In fact, the man did throw it in the bin but the boy got upset at that and got it out.
You see, camp is next week and that always causes problems. Changes to routines, changes to environments and mum and dad won’t be there. Stress overload.
She wants to go but she is scared. She cried herself to sleep on the two nights she went away last year, but she did it and we were proud of her. At this stage I don’t know whether she will be alive by next week to go.
The man and I had a good laugh tonight about a questionnaire we received about a sleep study. Sleep? Can anyone please tell us what that is? The girl goes to sleep any time between 9pm and 11pm and then wakes a couple of times a night and sometimes can be awake from 4am. I would hate to be her teacher at school on those days!
The good news so far this term is that the boy started tennis lessons and actually spoke to the coach and participated in his first lesson!! That would never have happened a year ago! He is making so much progress this year and he can’t wait to go back again tomorrow morning.
I am struggling with my depression but have turned to exercise to try to beat it this time. I am enjoying running and being out of the house and as a bonus the centimeters are coming off me as well. I love the freedom of being outside and not contactable. No kids, no screaming, no demanding.
Maybe I will go for another run today!
Or maybe have some wine instead.