Sometimes there is nothing better than getting outside and running in the fresh air.
I needed a break from work today so took the dog (Shiloh) out for a run. I ran about five kilometres but he seemed to cover a bit more. The boy was wondering why he seemed so tired tonight. I think I ran his little leggies off. Must put a tracker on him one day to see how far he actually goes….
Anyway, we have had a bit of stress lately with end of semester school exams, and a car accident last week and whatever else is going on and I had been waiting for the girl to have a meltdown over it all.
She has been fine but I had the meltdown for her.
So I have been running.
It works though, my stress and anxiety levels come down and I am happier again. I can feel physical soreness instead of mental soreness.
I don’t take a phone so no one can reach me – just me and the dog and the outdoors. No one knows where I am or where I’m going.
Get outside and just breath.
I may be back.
Who knows…. I might not stay either.
It’s been a long time. A few years in fact. The boy is now 13 and the girl is 15. Where does the time go?
I am still full of anxiety, still waiting for the explosions to happen. Still waiting for something to happen all the time.
I am still trying to figure out this parenting teenagers with Asperger’s lark.
The girl is a talented singer, writer and actor. When she wants to be. She says she wants to be an actor or an author but when her agent calls her up to say she has an audition she has a meltdown and won’t go. Why? Because she might not get the part! She doesn’t get that by not going she is definitely not going to get the part.
The the next audition she is fine. I don’t understand!
I scream internally (and externally) a lot….
She doesn’t get it.
The boy makes things. He will find a picture of an item, usually a weapon used in a film he has just seen and make a 3D replica of it. He is quite talented there but it makes for a messy house with paint and glue and bits of foam spread all over any available surface.
Apparently I love mess.
So we decided not to force the boy to go to camp as it was doing my head in….if it was causing that much stress then it wasn’t worth it.
So as I sat eating my breakfast on Monday morning, with no bags packed and the bus due to leave in 40 minutes the boy uttered the immortal words….
‘I don’t know if I want to go on Camp or not’
I have never moved so fast in my life. I knew that I had to go with it, that if he wanted to go on camp then I would get him there. Of course as soon as I said to get dressed he said no. I suggested he go on the bus and I would follow him up to camp in the afternoon, I really wanted him to experience something else. He couldn’t get dressed quick enough then, and he made it to the school bus on time.
That afternoon I drove the 2 hours up to camp. The boy was so excited to see me and started demanding that we leave immediately. He had decided he was only staying for the day. There was no chance of me sneaking away whilst he wasn’t watching……
I watched him go canoeing with his group and then we left the camp after dinner – there was no wine!!!!
How do the teachers cope?
By the time we got home the boy was tired and not feeling well. By morning he was vomiting. So so glad that I didn’t force him to stay – it would have been a nightmare!
I received a message from another parent who’s child was at the camp asking how long it took to travel there as she had to go and collect her child who was sick as well.
It is now Thursday and the man and I are sick as well, the boy is still sick.
What a week this has been!
Is it over yet?